features 2 of the biggest names in American Buddhism: Robert Aitken & Yamada Koun Zenshin; author had major rupture with both of these figures that was never fully resolved, so this memoir is tinged with some regret & bitterness, & at the same time it is a fascinating «behind the scenes» look at the personal dynamics & struggles of Zen center lifefocuses on specific events & personal growth, with a realistic, relatable ending (not a manual of beliefs or a gooey tale of...